I consider IVFs and FETs to be "high stakes cycling." Each one is expensive and requires an incredible time commitment and emotional toll. It really is a grueling process to endure and the BFNs are even more painful.
That said, I cannot sit around on beta day waiting for that call. I would go absolutely insane. So I POAS first. During IVF #1, I bought a big ol' megapack of FRER HPTs and started testing a few days before beta. After several consecutive BFNs, I put that one last HPT back in the closet and basically gave up. When beta was eventually drawn, it was a much expected BFN.
The beta for this FET was scheduled for today, but I planned on going in tomorrow morning because it is generally frowned upon to miss work in this first week back at school. Knowing that I needed to POAS, I decided to test this morning. I just knew yesterday as I was thinking (OK, stressing) about it that it would be a BFN and that testing right before going to work probably wasn't a good idea.
But I did it anyway...
Not only were there two lines, but the second line was a big, fat dark line that showed up almost immediately. I honestly could not believe what I was seeing.
I jumped in the shower while C was still sleeping in the other room and I was literally crying the whole time. I was in such a tizzy this morning that I forgot to put on moisturizer or makeup, and an itchy patch of skin on my temple is reminding me of this fact. I left in a hurry and I haven't stopped smiling since.
I am going in for beta tomorrow and I am hoping for a good beta number since the line was so dark and appeared so quickly. I really want to surprise C with the news, but I want the beta call first. Luckily, he will be paintballing with friends all day tomorrow, so I can wait for the call and plan something all day without having him around.
Please let this be it! Everything is just too perfect for this to fail...
Woo hoo! Awesome news!!
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